Meraki: to do something with soul, creativity or love. to put something of your self into your work.
Moon: natural satellite to the earth, that affects the oceans and tides.
the Self: the internal psyche that defines who we are
Meraki is becoming more and more important to me as I break apart who I am and heal my past. All my energy is being focused on this right now. I realized recently that over my life figuring out who I am has been my meraki. All the therapy, spiritual work, writing, school work, work work, friendships, relationships, art, everything has been my meraki. Whatever I do, create, or how I act, there is a part of me in it. I don't do anything lightly. I love and create deeply and from my soul. I understand this might not be the right use of the word, but it explains me and how I feel.
The Moon has always fascinated me, even when I was a kid. I loved to stare at it, fascinated by how it changed over the month. I remember when I was first taught how connected women cycles and the moon were, especially back before the invention of electricity. I was in my teens and it really made an impression on me and my body. Learning how much the monthly lunar cycle affected a women's reproductive cycle, helped me understand the monthly changes my body went through. I feel a lot of things pretty intensely during this time. Allowing myself to honor these feelings became important to me. Our current society does not put enough merit into emotions; for both women and men. We have ignored them, hiding them to protect ourselves from conflict. I do admit though I have allowed myself to hide this part of me when I am around others, especially when I am around men. I seem to give up what gives me strength when I get involved with someone on an intimate level.
These are things that define me and mean a lot to my soul and who I am.
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